Thursday, October 1, 2020

Who you say I am

 Today I had finished listening to all my pod casts for the week.  I was looking for something to listen to.  I just put it on worship music.  A song came on I hadn't heard before.  OR don't remember if I had.  It caught my attention so much I had to stop what I was doing and find out the song. The VERY first line caught my attention.  I almost started to cry when I looked it up and read the words! Have you ever had that happen?  I hope that you know who God says you are.   This is is it...


Who You Say I Am


Words and Music by Ben Fielding & Reuben Morgan


VERSE 1

Who am I that the highest King

Would welcome me

I was lost but He brought me in

Oh His love for me

Oh His love for me


CHORUS

Who the Son sets free

Oh is free indeed

I’m a child of God

Yes I am


VERSE 2

Free at last

He has ransomed me

His grace runs deep

While I was a slave to sin

Jesus died for me

Yes He died for me


CHORUS 2

Who the Son sets free

Oh is free indeed

I’m a child of God

Yes I am

In my Father’s house

There’s a place for me

I’m a child of God

Yes I am


BRIDGE

I am chosen

Not forsaken

I am who You say I am

You are for me

Not against me

I am who You say I am





Thursday, July 30, 2020

The one where my nightmares come true

When my kids were little I worried, to the point it was almost a nightmare about when the kids were gone and it was just us.  I was so busy being a wife and a mom and working that the thought of being with just Dh was almost overwhelming.  What would we do with our time??  I hope that makes sense to someone besides myself.  Today I was talking to a friend and the subject of house sitting came up.  I said sure!  I'd come for the peace and quiet.  Then I said OH! DH and I could come and stay. Especially since no one is taking vacations this year.  Bugs is an adult but still lives at home.  Monkey is more then capable of being here by himself and with his big brother.  I was so tickled at the thought.  I remember being so scared/worried about who I would be when I wasn't busy being a mom.  I am finding myself.  I like who I am.  I am doing things I love doing.  Most of our boys are adults.  I LOVE who they are and are becoming.  I think I'm a bit shocked at how good this all feels.  Life really does march on doesn't it. 


                              Please be kind and considerate of each other and those around you. 
                                                                               Peace

Thursday, May 14, 2020

What does it mean if you loose your compass?

What does it mean if you loose the compass?


I have worn 4 bracelets on my wrist for years.  1 is a word to remind me.  1 is mountains, I faced my fears there.  1 is just pretty to me.  The last one was a compass.  A compass to help me know my way.  I have no clue as to when or where I lost it.  That can't be good, can it?  
In my family we call it the Myer's gene.  If something can go wrong it will.  We don't fall down the stairs, we fall UP them.  One of my boys had Bells Palsy at 12.  Weird.  Chicken pox on his eye ball, yup - Myers gene.  Oh the list is huge!  But I digress. 
I can order another compass.  I was just sad to realize I had no clue when/where I lost it.  I'm not sure why it has hurt me so strongly that I lost it.  
I hope everyone is doing ok in this trying time.  We are healthy and starting to move around just a bit.  I'm not sure how "normal" the future looks in your area.  Not sure how it looks in ours either.  Everyone is ready to get back to work.   Stay safe, Be smart and considerate of others. 
Peace

Thursday, April 9, 2020

In the blink of an eye


This picture came up in my memories the other day.  It was an AMAZING dream come true.  I had wanted to take a helicopter ride for so long!  Hawaii is as beautiful from the air as it is on the ground.  It was just awesome.  Samantha may say other wise but she was a good sport about it.  LOL  When we got back to the helipad, we were waiting for the video and picture to load for our purchase.  My phone rang.   I stepped outside to take the call.  My life is forever changed.  My dad said I have cancer.  I think my lungs and heart burst from my chest.  I know I couldn't breathe.  I couldn't feel my hands.  It was so awful.  I felt so bad for my dad having to make that call.  He told me that I had to stay in Hawaii to finish the job I was there to do.  That was so hard to hear.  The need to run home was so great.   Consultations were planned and a plan was being put into place.  We talked a while more then hung up.    I caught my breath and went back into the office.  Those 3 expectant faces staring at me set me off again.  I went back outside.   When I pulled it together I went in and explained.  Tim loves my dad so much.  Carmen comforted me the best he was able.  We went on to try and have a good afternoon.  There was nothing I could do from there.
Very early the next morning my phone rang.  My mom had had a stroke in the night.  My dad blamed himself.(as if) because of the cancer diagnoses.  She was alright but she was in a fight to get her life back.  Daddy told me I had to stay in Hawaii to do the job I was there for.  Calls were made and plans put in place for our younger boys. They were with my parents for Spring break while we were gone.  Thank God for my family who was so very helpful. 
The wedding was so beautiful.  I was honored to be asked to document it.  But it was time to go home.  
The boys were here when we got here.  It was good to be together.   The next day or so Tim called and asked if I was going to see my parents.  I said yes.  He said I'll pick you up early.  And he did. 
We drove the 6 - maybe 5 that day, hours.  We walked into my mom's room.  We both cried.  She was working so hard to get herself all back!


The next few months were so hard!  My dad had several surgeries and had to start Chemo.  My mom had to stay and work her little hiney off to get her leg and arm doing what they were suppose to.  She finally did all she could in the rehab place and got to go home!  We did find out the chemo made the cancer very angry.  It made things so much worse for my dad.
New plan!  He start immune therapy.  It has been a game changer!  My dad is doing wonderful now.  His cancer is in remission!  Thank you Jesus!  My mom has most of her leg and arm back.  Her leg will never be the same.  BUT they are here and doing so good!  My mom actually has been on her horse once.  Probably not anymore but she's almost 82.  She has nothing to prove to anyone.  If she could get up, she'd be fine.  Maybe a high platform.  Since then my dad had fallen and broke his hip.  Almost a year later, a few weeks ago he got on his horse - NO pain!


Just look at that guy!
God is so good.  He doesn't promise no hard times.  Just that he will always be with us.  And Boy howdy has he been.  When it seemed the worse, he has brought us through.  


What made me think of all this...
Is in this very strange time we are in, The only sure thing we know is that God is here.  It's sometimes hard to remember to be grateful.  I was counting my blessings and these memories came up. 
  None of this is a surprise to God.  I'm so not sure of the lesson we are suppose to learn but I do know Who holds my future.  I have no choice but to trust God.  And so I do/will.  
I hope this finds you and your friends and family safe and well.  
Peace