I went and spent 4 days with my mom. Going through things and making her life a little more manageable. There is still so much paper work and other things needing to be done. I think we are starting to make headway with that. A couple of big things to do then I think she'll be set for a bit. On the way home Monkey and I were singing together. We do this a lot! He picked a few songs I'd pick a few songs and we just sang our hearts out. He loves acapella groups and listens to them often. He actually has really good taste in music. It was very hard leaving my mom. There really is things to do to lighten her load, and my brothers who both live in the area. If I feel a tad overwhelmed I can only imagine what they feel. All that to say I had a very verklempt drive home. I asked Monkey to find a specific song. He did and I listened to it a few times. It was a song I have sung in the past. I just needed to hear it.
God loves you - Chonda Pierce
Hope, like a flower, will push through the smallest crack in your broken heart
And out of the deep darkest night will shine the brightest burning star
Oh it's there, like a half remembered song
The thing that you've forgotten
But have known all along
God loves you
And He wants you to know
He is with you
You are not alone
He will see you through
God loves you
Tears are just water and salt, but a thimble full can feel oceans wide
But trust that just one gentle breeze can sail you to the other side
Oh it's there, like a whisper on the breeze
The truth that's so familiar
But still hard to believe
God loves you
And He wants you to know
He is with you
You are not alone
He will see you through
God loves you
You don't have to be anywhere near perfect
You don't ever have to prove a thing
You are loved, you are loved
So far beyond your imagining
God loves you
And He wants you to know
He is with you
You are not alone
He will see you through
God loves you
I had a good cry and asked Monkey to find Carrie Underwood's How Great thou art... after that good cry I was good for the day. I do not know how people get through this sort of pain without a faith in God. I think I'd already be out of my mind. I have to trust that someone bigger then I is in control and has a plan for our lives.
When peace like a river.... goes through my mind ever time I pass this spot. It's always beautiful! On we go. One step one breath one moment at a time. Some days are easier then others. Thanks for bearing with me as I ramble and stumble along. One thing though, I do know half a milkshake in the middle of your lap feels like. You can laugh if you'd like. We did. After we found a spot to pull over and got some water and a roll of paper towels. Ice cream melting through your dress down your thighs is a very odd sensation.
Take care of each other. Peace
