Today I was at the brother/sister in law's of the Mrs. Client/squirrel. Following so far? So, I'm asking Mr. Twins if he had heard about the squirrel in Mrs. Clients(sister) garage. He said No. So I proceed to tell him the story with all the appropriate motions and he was laughing just as hard as I was after I told him I so wanted to scream and scare the daylights out of her. When all of a sudden out of the corner of my eye Mr. Client is standing beside me! I YELLED. I didn't know he was there and he caught me totally off guard. Then we were ALL laughing! I do not like to be scared like that. Mr. Twins used to scare me all the time walking in and then talking to me when I thought I was alone. Oh it was funny.
Tonight I got invited to the daughter of my friends one year of sobriety celebration. I have never been to a NA meeting before. It was very interesting and moving. It was also a man's 10 year anniversary. People had such nice things to say and encouraging words. It's a very hard path and it's harder yet when you have to deal and make right the decisions you made while you were on drugs. I understand why some choose to not. It takes a huge effort to want to live. Not just exist or be, but to feel and love, to have hopes and dreams. It's work. I was asked to speak, but just couldn't get it together. I can never get my heart and mouth on the same page. So the leader asked about a nick-name I had given her in the height of her abuse and dysfunction. It was Princess Poopy. :) Everyone laughed. I wish I could have spoken eloquently of how proud of her I am. She has caused so much pain and so many sleepless nights and is doing all she can to make it right and to be a good mom now. She's taking responsibility for all her actions. Even when she doesn't like how it makes her feel. She's scared but marching forward to make a good life for son. I hope someday soon this time in her life can really be her past and a memory but not define her future. So God Bless you Ashley on your One Year Clean! Here's to 60 more!